Don't See, Don't Think, Don't Be

Still don't know what to write here, but whatever. Makoto, look sharp, will you? being all depressed doesn't fit a kidlet.

Life seriously need to pick up and go somewhere good soon, or I don't know what else to do. -_- Things are either a pain in the ass, or just boring as hell, and neither is exactly good. I... kind of need to get myself a hobby, don't I? >_> Nakano, Midori, Kisarazu, anyone... Any ideas?

Good news? Gettin a few things back on track, I think.
Bad news? Too much homework and my brain doesn't wanna cope with the shit.
Even worse things? They let dad go, not enough evidence to build a case or some shit like that. He's not in a good mood. Like, at all.
Gonna crash at the Oshitari's tonight. I think.
Those little twerps annoy the hell outta me though -_-

Well... Home from the hospital. Not HOME home, but over at Shizuka-san's place. Those twins are kinda a pain in the ass, but pretty okay, I guess. Shizuka's being a pretty good sport and leaves me the hell alone. That's good. I just wish everyone could wise up and do the same. I don't need anyone, I'm fine and the sooner people realize that, the better. Jeez...

and didn't find his way back home again
he searched and searched and found only nothingness
but then came a light and he saw it and it was good
and yes, so high on meds I can't even think but who cares, right?
had a nervous breakdown i think because the docs were all worried
and they pumped me full with shit so im good now
dammit i want out of here
bunch of shrinks and police just asking asking asking questions and it makes my head hurt
and they won't tell me where dad is and what's going on with him
screw this

And yeah... I'm in the hospital. Be out soon though.

To quote Nakano... ...fuck

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Well, I'm feeling a little bit better, I guess. The old man's been in a pretty good mood lately, which can be either good or bad, I dunno. I'm thinking of writing a song, and I have the lyrics just at the edge of my consciousness, and then they slip away and I hate it when that happens. I mean, really hate it. Like the inspiration just doesn't want to have anything to do with me. But hey, why should it? Why would I ever be able to create something that would actually be good for someone? Should focus on what I can do. Like... school work. Even if it breaks my brain. Logical thinking. It burns.

so fucking tired. As in tired for real. Skipped school today just so I could sleep. Annoying. One's supposed to sleep at night, yeah? Well, fuck this.
I wonder if Nakano wore the uniform today? I wanted to see the teachers' reactions. D= Argh.

And I need to go lay down again.

I'm weak for temptations it seems. Chocolate goodness. Nifty clothes. Fine, fine, my decent into the world of materialism hath thus begun. Lucky me~

My sister apparently is slipping into contemplative!mode and it's kind of distressing. A squirt shouldn't be allowed to grow up, you know? She said it herself even. Wants to be a little kid again. Well, I'm more than willing to shove you into the nearest timewarp, shrimp. Just lead the way.

And the chances of just running into someone you've seen online in a crowded place as Tokyo? Small. Still, it happened. So, uhm... Kisarazu. Thanks. For the other day.

I mean really. Poor thing builds up all this power for eons and eons, just to be able to go out with a bang, die and bring our little Earth with it. Thing is, there will probably be no people around to witness its grand death, because mankind will have destroyed Earth long before that ever happens. Really. Poor sun.

Auntie Eri said I'd get one of these. Well yay. Why I listen to her is beyond me but here I am. So who else is around?

And me?

Kikumaru Kai, I just turned 14. I go to Seishun Gakuen and I'm a member of the cooking club. I like to listen to punk rock and industrial rock mostly and I can be a very heavy sleeper. That's all, I guess...